Monday, July 30, 2007
3 days inches by..it inches..like snail..or i should say..even slower than snail..such a pain..there are many things that i do not know how to exactly put them in proper words..for the past 6 mths..i has increased my reliance on him..bit by bit..even i myself do not realise it..until a few weeks back..my thoughts were sorted out clear..but tt was before the meeting..i thought everything would be gone and be buried beneath the very bottom of my heart..i tried very hard to suppress all my feelings the day before the meeting..and treating it as if its my first and last meeting with him..with happy yet heavy thoughts swirling in my mind..i step on the journey..though it was a pretty long wait coz i too early..-.- things went on fine..we had fun..he was quiet though..but nv would i expect tt..we will get tgt..
everything was ok till i tried to convey the msg to the "authorities"..this is so head probing..i think if i had not tried to eat these few days..i would have lost a few kg..
so i decided..to work very hard to keep both sides going..to PLEASE my "authority" and to juggle my feelings and schwork tgt well..and i hope i dun collapse badly in the near future..
lastly..i would like to tell my beloved dar..we will strive hard tgt for the future..for our future..ya? miss u loads..
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